Omni-Fantastic

Posted on February 1, 2009
Filed Under Juvenile Diabetes, Personal, Random Rant | 1 Comment

Have you ever pitched a fit about getting something that you want sooooo bad, and then when you actually get the item, all of the sudden it’s really not that big of a deal anymore?  I’m kind of in that position right now.  A little bit different, but somewhat the same.

Last August I had a huge fight with the pod-hating insurance company that gave me a big promise and then a big let down all in one blow.  A few months later, the breadwinner changes jobs and and all of sudden has awesome insurance again that will actually cover the OmniPod insulin pump.  Now, the new insurance will cover the pump and I would like to say that I’m super pumped about it, but I’m not.

It’s supposed to arrive on Tuesday and a few days ago I was all excited about it.  But now I’m starting to have second thoughts or reservations.  The breadwinner says that it is just nerves about starting something new and that I should be happy to be getting off shots.

But I’m getting nervous about wearing the bulge.  Or what do I do if it starts BEEEEEEPING (I stole that from Kerri) while I am in an important meeting?  What if I can’t sleep with the thing attached to me?  I’ve been on an insulin pump before.  It was the Medtronic/MiniMed Paradigm 512 and with all of it’s mechanical problems I had with it in the final 2 years of wearing it, I gave up on it a little over a year ago.

Hopefully all of this anxiety will pass, the box will arrive at my office on Tuesday and I will be all excited again.  I could what-if this to death and 99% of those what-ifs will never come true.  This ain’t my first rodeo of dealing with nerves and diabetes.  That’s what makes my life so freaking fantastic. <insert sarcasm here>.

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One Response to “Omni-Fantastic”

  1. Chris on February 9th, 2009 8:33 pm

    I feel your apprehension. Anything changes that can potentially impact my day-to-day routine are usually met with resistance. Even if deep down I know it’s for the better. Hopefully you’ll adjust well.

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